Stress. Not to be meddled with.

Sometimes I really wonder if it is my poor time management that got me into such a plight.

Or is it my so-very uncreative mind that has let me down time over time?

I really wonder how to spice things up during the investiture. Time is running short. I feel so chickened out.

If only I didn't take up the job. Now even if the event pulls through successfully, it will only be a half-past-six job.

Again, I will survive. Thank you to all my friends who helped me with some ideas. I really appreciate it. You know who you are. Thanks to Anqi also for coming online just to help me abit.

Sleep is good. You sleep to prepare for a longer route tomorrow.

On top of sleep, I think I need booze also.

Good night people.

My Turning Point.

I feel that the gush of commitments towards me these few months actually made an impact on my life.

Somehow, that impact has caused me to focus on only important issues. Do you call that prioritising?

When I am alone, those moments set my mind off thinking about my future. What am I to do when I only have a meagre income of $300 per month based on tuition during Year 3 and 4? What I am to do when I take over the baton of command from Renee?

I feel apprehensive of my future, so much so that I don't get paranoid about my relationship with Anqi. Yes being busy creates a barricade to wild thoughts.

This semester is like a bullet train that goes at 120kph. I still feel the holiday mood in me and it still seemed like a honeymoon period like last year when I was just a Year 1 freshman.

Notwithstanding all these, I am still a happy man. Haha!

Maybe that impact was a positive one because I am not a last-minute man anymore.

I just finished my essay!

Okay, I am running late for dinner with her and her friends.

Good day people.

Surviving.

I am feeling the waves of stress beating against my face as every day comes. The towering fear of failure in fulfilling my responsibilities looms above my tightening head.

BUT...

Send me to Hell; I will survive.

Tired. Beaten. Shagged.

I had never felt so tired out so early in the semester, compared with the earlier part of Year 1's workload. Let me list down what I have this semester (as far as I can recall).

1. Investiture planning.
2. Presentations this Wednesday and 2 weeks later.
3. Club administration.
4. Practical report due this Thursday.
5. Driving lesson later on at 8.30am
6. Scheduled tuition on Tusdays and Fridays.
7. Ourdoor Activities' Committee planning.
8. CTS 202 Essay due next Monday.

I wonder when can I find the time to do my favourite activities like fishing and roller-blading.

For the past one week, it had been quite fun and happening. Was out with Anqi dearest almost every single day and I would say they had been really fun though tiring. Out for a 7th Month dinner at the Detention Barracks and went for more boozing after that. But I think I have to cut down on these high-cost activities and concentrate on saving up for my rainy days and my final two years in NIE.

I seriously need more clothes for my boring wardrobe. I need more money to feed my piggy bank. I need more ideas to perk up the relationship.

Wah I cannot think anymore. My mind's burning me out.

Lastly, I must thank Anqi dearest for making me stressful days more tolerable and "enjoyable".

I didn't make the wrong choice after all. Heh.

Good night people.

Sometimes.

Sometimes, I wonder if it is my stress levels that made me nonchalent about things around me.

Sometimes, I wonder if it is my lack of sleep that made me ignored important things.

Sometimes, I wonder if it is the feeling of being single for so long that made me feel "relaxed" about being in a relationship.

Sometimes, I wonder if I am beginning to take things for granted because I expect people to "see" my unspoken stresses that I face in school.

I don't want to wonder; I want my answers.

Just My 2 Cents' Worth.

I know what I am going to say is going to sound cliche but anyway, here goes.

It got to be about the urban legend that I had once mentioned before; love.

It take hell of a lot of courage to stay committed in a relationship. People come and people go. Temptations surface and temptations fade throughout the spectrum of time.

But how many "special someone"s actually touched your life before but you had let them go because of new-found, sinful temptations? Yes perhaps some are right to say that majority of the girls ranging from 20-26 years old are still suckers for pretty guys. Somehow they think that it is too soon to stay committed in a relationship. Well, you are right in a way but as time goes on, you might jolly well learn your lesson the hard way. And the emotional guilt can stay with you for life. And self-reprimand sets in.

Advice after advice, experience being shared but yet one cannot resist these subtle temptations that the female hormones can bring about. Being materialistic? Not being able to appreciate people around you?

C'mon, what kind of happiness can pretty boys bring you? One day you will have a taste of your own medicine.

In a way, you are not just ruining your own love life but I guess your social life with your close friends can be affected badly also. You might know what I am talking about.

I don't know if this post sounds obvious to the person I am writing about, but ya, it is for you. Although I am not closely acquainted with you, I thought I should share with you some of the stuff which are probably emphasised to you before by many other people dear to you.

The primary reason why I want to share this with you is that, I hope you don't go around breaking guys' hearts especially when they are ready to commit and you are not. If you don't know what you really want, then perhaps you should review your own actions and reasons behind those actions. Don't let your brain go lull; utilise more of its powerful, logical skills than using the uncomprehended tools of the heart. You are more likely to go wrong most of the time when you think with your heart when it is coupled with an indecisive mind.

I am sorry if I sounded blunt, really rude or intrusive of your life. I just hope to do my part as a friend.

With this I rest my case.

Back to my life. Haha! Had a very long day. Was in school from the morning at 10.30am to 5.30pm, which ended with a sickening and boring history tutorial.

Met up with Bro jimbi and co for some jalan-jalan at Tampines. Oh I am still very enthusiastic about my O2 Mini because I was still looking all over for it. Can't forget the sleekiness. *sigh* Had a second dinner with Honey. So sweet of her to accompany me for dinner although she was really tired.

Thank you dear. I really appreciate all these.

And to Jimmy, hope your gek hway gets better tomorrow. And King, please stop flooding my bloody tagboard. I will personally shaft a Martell Cannon up your arse one day. Sooner or later.

Good night people.

WAHAHAH!

I can't help but to laugh HILARIOUSLY over this profile I saw in Friendster.

Dear,i hate u going to outfield, live firing, training and guard duty ..But i understand its ur duty. I m proud of u baby...i noe is hard for u..cuz u have been suffering alot in camp. Dear i'll promise u i'll wait till the DAY COME DEC 2005.Dun worry baby..i will nvr do anythin unfaithful to u...U r not my 1st man...but u r definitely my last... I'll love and treasure u.. Tryin my best to be the best gf in your heart. i'll do watever it takes to put a smile on ur face. I may not be ur prettiest gf..or most understanding gf...BUT i m the gf who love u the most..with a true heart. Just wan u to noe..how wonderful life is now u're in my world too. I love you baby..And nothing will take that love away. I'll wait for the day tht i become Mrs Yeo.. Hope tat day will come..i'm still waiting for you.....Hurray!!! Few m0re mths my b0y will ORD le..Finally tis day come.....Dear thank for all your Love & Hugs** u have given mi..Sorry if i've make u angry in the pAst..

I don't know I should feel thankful for such a friend (because she made me laugh) or feel (insert evil and mean adjective), but this girl IS my friend.

Oh gosh. This is really mean.

In Love.

I feel so much in love now. No one can feel how I feel because it was new-found. Something which never emit from me back then.

But I have to wait two more painful months before my new dream can come true.

*Sigh*

I want to get O2 XdA Mini.

And I should be sleeping now, if not someone will kill me. Anyway she's asleep also. Just pray hard that she don't see this post.

I think I am infatuated with technology; how far it had brought us until present days. I can still remember umpteen years ago when WAP was still at its infancy. Within 5 years, GPRS became the norm in this ever-evolving society and look what we have now? MSN-ing on the move and surfing the Web using smartphones and PDA phones. For that matter, you might not even need a smart phone. A Symbian-based one with fully functional xHTML/HTML browser will suffice.

Convergent devices are proliferating this tech-savvy world. Who can resist and not succumb to its temptations?

Ask me, and I'd tell you.

I had just became a slave to this.

Apart from being a techy-geeko, my weekend had been nice and sweet. A plain o'simple one with her. But I tell you, a barrel of beer at Fisherman's was bad, and will always be bad. Can't help but to fall asleep almost spontaneously when I hit the sack when we got home. It was almost intuitive I would say. But thank God that I could still shower and watch a little television.

Off to sleep. A long day tomorrow.

And I'm meeting her for school!

Poetic Me. Again.

On this sleepless night I stare into the starry skies,
I still hear the violin playing melancholic chimes.
Left in the skies remain one moon that shines,
subtly speaking to me at this introspective time.

Loving someone seems to be a horrible crime,
people reconcile at seemingly wrong times.
Only disappointment lingers in my void,
bitter as medicine and sour as lime.

My heart is pre-occupied with you till the end of my life,
I cannot fathom why you might take it as a lie.
Every single moment spent with you is a joy,
I want to spend my days with you until I die.

I need patience from you to see me change,
though scars from the past may make you lose your faith.
But one thing for sure that remains unchanged,
You are always my sunshine, you always make my day.

Baffled.

I don't know what're wrong with things now, and don't bother asking me why. I don't think I will entertain questions.

My blog has once again became my source of frustration valve.

Ten Things About Me Today You Might (or Don't) Want To Know.

1. I had a terrible nightmare last night just after I fell asleep and hence I have a little phobia for sleeping tonight.
2. I am beginning to dread waking up because I have to brush my teeth after that.
3. I had a late lunch and didn't eat any dinner.
4. I have the urge to take a dump but lazy to do so.
5. I am feeling very restless and hungry now.
6. I don't know if I should get my highlights tomorrow.
7. I have no mood for lessons this week.
8. I am thinking of the activities for this weekend. Seems to be nothing at all, or there are?
9. I am feeling (insert mood) now.
10. I am beginning to think that the glass is half-empty, like a pessimist does.
    

Life is getting more and more interesting by the day, but of course, coupled with downs of life.

If only...*sigh*

Good night people.

Silly Quotes.

Here are some silly quotes I've found. Interesting!

"Keep smiling, it makes people wonder what you're up to."

"Procrastinate now, don't put it off."

I'd kill for a Nobel Peace Prize.

The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.

Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.

When everything is coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.

If Barbie is so popular, why do you have to buy her friends?

What happens if you get scared half to death twice?

My mechanic told me, "I couldn't repair your brakes, so I made your horn louder."

A conclusion is the part where you got tired of thinking

To steal ideas from one person is plagiarism; to steal from many is research.

"Careful with that light at the end of the tunnel, it might be another train coming."

"don't drink and drive you might spill your beer"

Smile, and the world will smile with you. Laugh and they'll all think you're on drugs.

I'll be sober tomorrow but you'll still be ugly for the rest of your life.

"When they put unknown at the end of a quote, that means they probably don't no how to spell anonymous" -unknown

"Dilbert's Words of Wisdom: You're slower than a herd of turtles stampeding through peanut butter."

I'm an angel, honest! The horns are just there to keep the halo straight

Beauty is in the eye of the beer holder

Ethernet (n): something used to catch the etherbunny

"A person knows he has found his true love when they call that person and say: Honey, I just killed someone. And that person's response is: where do we hide the body?"

"Beer, getting ugly people laid since 1700"

"Have you ever noticed that if you rearranged the letters in mother in law, they come out to Woman Hitler?"

Fishing At Bedok Jetty.

I can't believe my eyes when I saw my first catch last night.

A freaking sea snake on my hook.

And that was my only catch. Oh well. Fishing last night was only secondary on my agenda.

The primary purpose is to spend quality and quiet time with her at the jetty while enjoying the sea breeze. And did I mention that we saw the pre-NDP fireworks from the jetty at Marina South also? It was a magnificient and spectacular sight!

And I have to thank Lixun for making this trip possible. Because he lent me sinkers when mine ran out. So thankful that he cycled all the way down for me. Thank you dude!

Had a bottle of Shiraz with us and it SUCKS. Merlot rocks.

I want to go fishing again with a more prepared set of fishing kit and rods.

Went home at around 10am this morning and slept the day away until 7pm plus. *Sigh*

Assignments and club work are stacking up and I wish I had more time like during the holidays. I miss roller-blading.

Good night people.

Quote.

"The fear of hurting another emotionally is only attributed to one reason; uncertainty of one self."

Good night people.

A Young Boy.

Many of you might not know this childish part of me.

I sulk like a boy at times if I don't get what I want. Literally.

Oh well, it takes great discipline and mind power in order to change this negative aspect of my character.

Sometimes, be contented with what you have. Don't ask for more.

I am not practising what I preach. *sigh*

Good night people.

Anomaly.

It is really an anomaly that I didn't blog for 4 days in a row.

Somehow, my mind was stagnant these few days. Kind of. Like having nothing to blog about although my previous days had been interesting and fun.

Okay let's recap what had happened in my past four days.

Monday was the day of my exact birthday. And Kim aka sis gave me a cute little cross-stitch bookmark with my name and a picture of a frog sewn on it. And Sarah aka dotter gave me a small little tee-shirt with some birthday notes on it. So cute.

And boy...I'm really touched by these two presents. Thank you girls.

Not forgetting the rest who chipped in for the piggy bank. People like April, Olivia, Lingling, Siyi, Sharon, Khadijah, Rozi, Sarah, Kimberly, QJ, Quek, CS, Lixun and Fuxiang.

So I kind of ended my day with a late night because I had a steamboat buffet with Anqi and then walked around in Suntec until 10 plus before we make our way to Crown Prince Hotel for some ice cream. And yes, it got to be Sticky Chewy Chocolate. =)

I think I forgotten what I did on Tuesday, but the only important thing that I'd remember is the preparation for the recruitment drive.

Wednesday marked the first day of the drive and BSC scored 18 points. 18 people signed up. Yipee!

And for today, I did nothing much. Assisted in NCC training in my alma mater and went to Dover and picked her up for dinner. Had a really full dinner with Laksa and fried dumplings in two separate coffeeshops. *Burps*

Somehow, I'm still waiting for an answer. Waiting and waiting and patiently waiting.....

The days we've spent were truly sweet,
those days felt like an island retreat.
Stressed up was me as you can always see,
you never fail to cheer me up and make me complete.

I can see your efforts and I appreciate it,
I will do my best again and never concede defeat.
We must work hard for better days to come,
without you I feel lost, my heart can skip a beat.

Sometimes I wonder why am I waiting.
But this thought is redundant, doesn't mean a thing.
Just that I can't fathom how your mind tweaks,
I am waiting for the day when you unexpectedly agree.

Many Thanks.

I would like to give my heartfelt appreciation and many thanks to those brothers & sisters of mine who made it for my birthday gathering at Double O yesterday.

Many thanks to Jimmy and co for buying me the cake.

Many thanks to the rest of you guys also for making this gathering a wonderfully enjoyable one for my 22nd birthday, and yes I really appreciate all these.

And I must apologize for being such a bad host but nonetheless, you guys enjoyed yourselves (I hope).

And I must apologize also for the pictures. Some faces were cut off and the flash of my camera isn't that fantastic so they turned out quite dark for some.

Will be uploading them tomorrow. My mind is restless now and I want to do some tutorials.

Once again, thank you for making this gathering part of my life's memories that I will always keep with me.