The life we lead.

We often look back our lives in reminiscence; what could we have done well in, what we could have done better in and what sort of repercussions we could have possibly created.

But only when things happen.

Generally, when things get to such a stage, it is, more often than not, way beyond salvation.
I don't deny I felt it myself as well. This society is pragmatic and stereotypes have been imprinted on you. As what they say, "It takes years to build trust and a few seconds to break it."

So, what have I accomplished? I really don't know. I'm just beginning to regain my true self after going through so much, so much grinding and moulding. But sometimes, I feel that my vision is still obscured.

There is still something amiss.

The life we lead feels so mundane,
The words we say sound so insane.
But who knows what lies within is a soul contained,
To be liberated by the legendary bane.

I am also a human being, just like anyone of you.

“Living things need air. Living things need love too.”

Sometimes, the magnitudes of life get into people. People appear strong, but it is the stronger ones who are weak on the inside. The vulnerable ones. We talk about it, we have critical discussions. We agree, and we contest.

The truth is at the end of the day, do we accept, assimilate and learn?

Talk is cheap, and so they say.
Who ever treats it seriously, keeping it at bay.
It can be superficial, likened to a relay.
Blessed are those who chose to look away.

___________________________

All of us grew up in different cultures, environments and values. There is definitely room for disparity and contest when we discuss about some of them; how they affect our thinking and behaviour. Subjectivity plays a bigger role here.

Talk about Nature v.s. Nurture.

There is no right or wrong. We live by principles. Personal ones; be it pre-determined by religion, the society or the environment. It is always good to know that we should always be able to answer to our consciences for the actions we do.

Sometimes, we can’t. So then, what do we do?

As our biological makeup tells us, we compensate.

Ah ha! Sometimes the society doesn’t give you the chance for redemption. Sometimes, it’s the people. Sometimes, it’s the stereotype you give others.

Sometimes, you yourself don’t give yourself the chance to. Somehow, there is the missing link that caused all these.

Good night people. The day is coming, and I am not at all, excited.

The Feast.

The chandeliers alight, amidst the gracious dancing crowd.

The dinner's a feast, the atmosphere's light as a cloud.

There harboured a deadly silence, probably too loud.

All but one gentleman sits on that unique couch.

~dylan

十指紧扣

即使可以畅聚
最幸运的一对伴侣
沿途仍旧要牵手伴随
原来为了温馨之中带着了恐惧
若那对手放松了会怕失去

紧紧拥抱以外
我用什么感到被爱
沿途陪着你手松下来
遗留十时空间谁相信你在乎我
若那缺陷拉阔随时会分开

谁都知双手可紧扣不依不舍的背后这个信念有多温柔
从害怕会被拥有直到力气不够十只手指终於找得到对手
能开不能心都紧扣辛不辛苦都接受是
一个成就
可惜我只想与一个人尾指一勾也没有

紧紧拥抱以外我用什么感到被爱
沿途伴着你手松下来
遗留十时空间谁相信你在乎我
若那缺陷拉阔随时会分开

谁都知双手可紧扣不依不舍的背后这个信念有多温柔
从害怕会被拥有
直到力气不够十只手指终於找得到对手

能开不能心都紧扣辛不辛苦都接受
是一个成就
可惜我只得我一个人绕起双手

谁都知双手可紧扣不依不舍的背后这个信念有多温柔
从害怕会被拥有直到力气不够十只手指就是绝望时扶手
能开不能心都紧扣辛不辛苦都接受
是一个成就
可惜我只想与一个人尾指一勾也没有

A Night To Remember.

I'd thought that it would just be a simple dinner, with a little booze and singing and off we'll go by 11, just in time before the surcharge sets in.

Boy I was wrong.

It turned out to be a wedding discussion, some mind-provoking thoughts with loads of humour blended in.

That is why I decided to blog, knowing that verbalism at that point in time wouldn't earn me any credit.

A few things happened to rock my mind just now, but due to some sort of mild intoxication (as it always does), I shall only briefly talk about some issues which my mind could still remember.

One issue that spurred my mind into the thinking process was on morality. Morality is a very subjective and debatable topic. How does one define this very simple word but yet carry an abyssal of disputable ideas? To one, visiting nightclubs can be defined as a morally acceptable rite of a male as long as there are no sexual acts involved; while some deemed that as long as you visit such places, you are just so wrong.

Then again, how do we define the term, 'sexual act?' Morality is just way too subjective to be thought upon from a generalist's point of view. Some said that the concept of morality is derived from the culture where one lives in while there is contest that morality is based on religious grounds. Some believe that morality is derived from oneself; the kind of environment the person grows up in. Talk about principles.

Okay, this is a topic which can go on and on, and so I shall just let it dwell in me (if it ever does).

And so, we talk about marriage subsequently.

I have this strong feeling that the environment does change a person drastically. Especially so in Singapore. The pragmatism is simply too strong. So much so that when it doesn't change a person for the better, it changes the person's way of life and habits.

Sometimes, so much so that I almost cannot recognise the person whom I know, albeit some parts of him didn't change.

Then, we did talk about what we want out of life. Money-oriented, or purpose-oriented? There is always this stigma there remains deeply ingrained in Singaporeans. Money is power.

Some of us are way too overwhelmed by the fact that money makes the world go round. To the guy, money makes the women go round (and this is pretty true to a certain extent; personal opinions though). Indeed, having money is important in Singapore. People recognise your status in the society by looking at the thick stash of credit cards in that folding leather wallet of yours. People look at the car you drive. They look at the job you are holding, whether there are any routes for further, potential advancements.

Now, who really gives two hoots about you even if you really love the person deeply, with all your heart but hold a mediocre job, let alone a career.

Okay, so much for today.

Good night people.

Let's live in a perfect world (and so they say).

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

BlogThings

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. With respect to money, you save for a rainy day. You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities. The hidden side of your personality tends to be methodical in your ways - with trouble adapting to the rules of society. You have a tendency to overdo things, but basically you value your friendships highly. When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you don't have any particular type in mind, but you are inclined to look for someone who will say yes when you ask him / her out.

Who's The True You?

You Are 72% Gentleman

You are definitely a gentleman. You're very considerate and you have excellent manners. Occasionally, you slip and do something foolish... but usually no one notices!

Are You A Gentleman?

Your Personality Is

Rational (NT) You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas. You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy! Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people. In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally. You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought. Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals. In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent. At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia. With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well. As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly. On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

The Three Question Personality Test

Damn it this one hit me right in the spot!

You Are a Natural Flirt

Believe it or not, you're a really effective flirt. And you're so good, you hardly notice that you're flirting. Your attitude and confidence make you a natural flirt. And the fact that you don't know it is just that more attractive!

What Kind of Flirt Are You?

Totally WRONG!

You Are 65% Normal

Otherwise known as the normal amount of normal You're like most people most of the time But you've got those quirks that make you endearing You're unique, yes... but not frighteningly so!

How Normal Are You?

Reasons.

Sometimes, people do things for the right reasons. Sometimes, half-right reasons. Sometimes, the wrong reasons which they thought are really legitimate.

But again, how do we justify that something is right or wrong?

Hence the saying, one man's meat is another man's poison.

It is hard to be true to ourselves when we want to prove certain points and yet be politically correct about them. Sometimes, we give the wrong reasons to support the right reasons, and the right reasons to support the wrong reasons.

__________

That is why sometimes, I choose to be quiet and keep it lying low. At the very least, I am being answerable to my conscience, safe for the unbearable feeling of holding it within.

The rain fell incessantly from the skies,
flowers in the garden refuse to reply.
No matter how hard it is; I try.
You just ain't moved and that is fine.

The lonely man sleeps with the passing of time.

The love has only impatience left confined,
who else can I put my heart to confide.
White and black keys on the piano side by side,
just a missing piece disrupts all vibes.

A deeply-etched heart knows nothing of goodbye,
it is clear yet you wanted me to explain why.
Falling deeply in love makes one fanatically inclined;
I betray myself to accommodate your rhyme.

How Time Flies.

It was pretty nostalgic spending an hour odd reading my old posts. I cannot believe that I wrote some of them.

It has been so long and so much that I have gone through in the past two years. Unbelievable.

I was thinking about the whole idea of blogging. What do your readers want to read? Your mundane, boring lifestyle or your inner thoughts? Interestingly, I know of personal and anonymous readers who 'originated' from a few of my friends' blogs. Rather consistent viewerships from them (I know because I have spies. LOL).

It appears that all my previous entries were intensively painted with a heavy tone of melancholy and personal emotions. Nowadays, these thoughts never manifest in my blog anymore because they seem so insignificant and not worthy of any mention. Pale in comparison with what other people are going through. Life is great the way it is now (less the lack of much desired company in times of dire needs) and I would love to live it this way.

It is always good to relive the good o'days sometimes.

Good night people.

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net


Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Randoms.

I have too many random thoughts nowadays that I have absolutely no idea how to pen it down appropriately.

1. Got to work hard and graduate soon. Get a car. Convenient (albeit pocket kosong)
2. People changed over a few years. There is really room for comparison when you keep hanging out with them. Sometimes you don't quite get used to it.
3. The holiday is coming to an end and I think when that day comes, it is catastrophic because I'm still lagging terribly behind in my FYP. Singapore not enough lizards lah.
4. The world is such a small place.
5. I'm feeling poetic now.
6. I'm so into wlny. It gives me a new perspective to people's attitude and character.
7. I haven't clear my IPPT. Nor booked my test date yet. Charge me.
8. No idea how to clear my birthday this year. Slack at home, perhaps.
9. Latest adores: Luciano Soprani Uomo and Armani Code.
10. I want a new Nokia N80. Like, desperately.

Tired, blog again later.

A Flame

A flame that burns great in passion,

liken to a fire with no cessation.

Waxing and waning, the flame's persistence,

soon to be burnt out with life's obsessions.

Quotes, yet again.

Here are more quotes that I have found online (suddenly inspired to do this post, by some recent 'alarming' news):

1. People shop for a bathing suit with more care than they do a husband or wife. The rules are the same. Look for something you'll feel comfortable wearing. Allow for room to grow.
2. The Japanese have a word for it.It's Judo -- the art of conquering by yielding.The Western equivalent of judo is, 'Yes, dear.'
3. Marriage has many pains, but celibacy has no pleasures.
4. Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies.
5. Marriage is not a simple love affair, it's an ordeal, and the ordeal is the sacrifice of ego to a relationship in which two have become one.
6. A great marriage is not when the 'perfect couple' comes together. It is when an imperfect couple learns to enjoy their differences.
7. Love is an ideal thing, marriage a real thing; a confusion of the real with the ideal never goes unpunished.
8. A man in love is incomplete until he has married. Then he's finished.
9. Love is a fire. But whether it is going to warm your hearth or burn down your house, you can never tell.
10. A man who marries a woman to educate her falls a victim to the same fallacy as the woman who marries a man to reform him.
11. It is better for a woman to love a man who loves her more than she loves him.
12. Know her mind and you can have her body, know her heart and you have her soul.
13. Mistress: Something between a mister and a mattress.
14. When a man steals your date, there is no better revenge than to let him keep her.
15. Men marry women with the hope they will never change. Women marry men with the hope they will change. Invariably they are both disappointed.

__________

In just a short 3-year timespan, I have been to at least 6 wedding dinners, in addition to a few more impending registrations of marriages.

It is always heart-warming and sweet to be able to be part of the wedding crowd, sitting down there listening couples sharing their love experiences and giving thanks for who they have become today.

However, what really makes my heart feel is when I hear of close friends tying the knot (soon/in future). I don't know how to explain it. It is not as if it is for granted that these two person will get married in due time (although for some, that applies) but the type of feeling that runs through your mind and nerves somehow feels tangible, and you feel all excited about it.

Going to get busy with my final year project soon!

I'll see you people when I see you.

Good day people.