Suppressed.

How long will the rainy season be,
how long will it last?
When will I see the birds fly free,
past the greens so lush.

Computers have their downtimes. Servers need to be upgraded.

What more for humans?

There are tonnes of thoughts on my mind which I really, really want to pen it down. But I couldn't find the words for them. They are perplexed thoughts I know; the usual me can often find appropriate words to convey the messages across.

It feels so different today.

Could it be that four-letter word again?

Or could it be the barrage of incidents that happened between me and my supervisor today? I can't even differentiate.

I do miss the bros.

At least, seeking solace in them always results in something fruitful. Maybe I can liken it to jumping into a pool full of ice-water after talking to them.

Dark clouds in the skies never seem enough,
the waves in the sea never seem so rough.
The mage tried casting the spell but to no avail,
it was obvious he ain't have enough charm.

Time seems to be crawling tonight. Tomorrow seems catastrophic. I wish that one day, my mobile will break down on me and hence, breaking off my contact with the rest of the mortal world. The expulsion of melancholic thoughts off the shady mind does not feel like it's working today like it used to work in the past.

It seems like a beautiful morning today. Like the whole world's smiling at me.

Really.

But apparently after that, it felt more like they have turned their backs on me, their gnawing snares ready to strike; and the hunger pangs from their hungers resonating deeply in my mind.

Their hunger for silencing me.

The rainbows will always stay beautiful,

the sunshine will always shine.

The gentleman awaits like a clever fool,

just to be caught by his own crime.

Weather Report

The weatherman says it is going to be rainy for the next few days.

Time.

How time flies. So swift and deadly such that when there are recollections, they seem like eons ago.

At least, school started off with a gentle note; nothing like an upheaval in my (campus) social life (in every sense of that phrase).

And yes, having the flu bug for 5 days isn't exactly the kind of feeling you want to carry when school just reopened.

1. Nasal voice
2. "Ah Du" - alike voice
3. Can't go singing during the weekend
4. Can't go into the sun and do Miss Lizzie for FYP

And the most ridiculous thing that happened this week; good weather while I was stricken with illness, with me wearing jackets and all. And inclement weather today when I decided to do some work.

I'd pray for myself that I will pull through this semester. The exhilarating feeling of seeing my friends in school once again always eluded from my bubbly behaviour in every semester.

In this special semester, it is totally ruined by the thought of the impending poster presentation.

But well, happy things do happen as well.

Good day people.

Luther Vandross - I'd Rather

I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that

I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone (alone)
and I tried to find out if this one thing is true

that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

And then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you

we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies

so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart

I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine

I'd rather have bad times with (please be mine) you,than good times with someone else (I know)I'd rather be beside you in a storm (anytime),than safe and warm by myself (so sure baby)
I'd rather have hard times together,than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (my heart)

I'd rather have bad times with you (surely) ,than good times with someone else (surely)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm (oh yeah),
than safe and warm by myself (all by myself)
I'd rather have hard times together,than to have it easy apart (you know it)
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

What a beautiful song that captivates me. =)

Sunshine

A day of madness rushing to and fro,
a day of apprehension slowly rows.
To meet the sunshine up the bridge,
butterflies in the stomach slowly go.

*****

It is interesting how it manifested,
it is amazing how it works.
A different feel started at the very first,
giving me the thrust to go forward.

That face radiates a serene surge,

peaceful yet filled with perks.

Gentle and not perturbed,

the face hiding a mind tormented.

*****

The sunshine will always be wanted,

just like roses that are always scented.

*****

Albeit a multitude of feelings concocted,

the gentleman battles the field unconceited.

Really, the sun should have gone down long ago.

Nothing has been going on rather fine, as-a-matter-of-factly.

1. Birthday celebration crashed.
2. Many incidents on the recent Friday the Thirteen.
3. FYP not progressing fast enough.

I think I sound depressing enough, as what this blog has always been eluding; the ever-familiar sense of melancholy from the writer.

Why ah?

I guess there are way too many contributing factors.

I never know, words from a person of the same sex can make a guy tear. As always, there is a first time to everything.

__________

我有一个不能说的秘密。

__________

More often than not, we fall. Just like what I have learnt in class today, this phrase; inherently fallible.

Yes, I guess I am inherently fallible as well. It is a multitude of events colourful and all, but sometimes we ought to take things (in every sense of the word) with a pinch of salt. Having spoken to many people from the mundanities of life to personal outlooks of their futures, I see contrasting details in perspectives. Being me, psycho-analysing situations has always been a way of life for me (if I want to).

And trust me, don't read too much sometimes. Reading minds can, sometimes, be bad for the mind. Well, for me, it is most of the time.

Aiyah, I say the same old sh*t all the time. Damn it.

Randoms.

Guys, sorry for the randoms. Once again.

1. There are actually viewers who goggled my name and found their way to this page.
2. Always, always use parking coupons if you have to.
3. You can get into a trance-like nap when you fall asleep at the poolside with noisy IJ girls around having swimming classes. And get really funny dreams.
4. TyPin LyK dIS pIsS moIx oFf biG tIme, EuU nOEs ThaTt?

Birthdays.

It is his birthday today, and mine was yesterday! :D

Damn, I wish I have a birthday cake like his. That would be like, totally AWESOME!

Good day people.