Tonight.

It has been fun catching up with old friends and all. They never fail to let me see another perspective of life.

And that's part one only.

Part 2 was really, really interesting. I have really loads of emotions during that phase.

I felt sour and bitter for quite a long time, but somehow, also happy.

Nonetheless, her friend was interesting. I cannot imagine that she actually asked that question, which stunned me as well.

Good day people.

Expectations.

In life, there are expectations.

Either you live up to them, or you don't. That's common sense.

And when you don't, you screw yourself up.

But that's really okay you know.

The worst thing that can happen is, you screw other people up as well.

I Wonder.

Sometimes, I wonder if I can cope with I have on hand now.

Sometimes, I wonder about a lot of things.

All of which cannot come into this little humble page of mine.

Sometimes, I wonder about my existence on this place.

Sometimes, I wonder about my worth.

As I create this post, I thought back on something which I had written previously. I wish I can think that way again.

It is hard, lah.

I'm just like any other boys out there.

8 More Hours.

Hong Da, you're screwed big time this time round.

Sometimes.

Sometimes, I spent too much time analysing what other people say on tagboards.

No, not mine. Of course I know what's going on in mine.

And obviously, I spent the time analysing other people's tagboard and consequentially, invoking thoughts within myself.

Sometimes, I wish I don't have to resort to drinking to relax myself. Drinking has both its pros and cons, apart from physical damage and "addiction."

I'm sick of studying, and at the same time, having the same old problem bugging me year after year. Life definitely have something better in place for me isn't it?

The mundanity of life is something that I always want to get out of.

Good morning people.

Muggadoodle

I mugged at Starbuck's and RV Plaza's Mac with fio last night. Apologies for arriving so late. HAHA! It was funny lah. The most vivid thing I could remember was at Mac. I think she managed to subdue one chapter of her cina while I managed to do a readthrough of a few chapters.

And I won't be studying tonight! *evil*

She was funny lah. I cannot imagine she can be as lame as me and yet put on such a serious front. Yes I got defeated at my own game this time. #@$@$!#@$!@. But nonetheless, interesting to sustain the whole night. The talk of the night was about our cups of tea. So you see, we were sitting beside the power socket (I needed to charge my laptop) and that's the place where they plug in the free coffee and tea refiller thingy. She got around *counting using fingers*, 5 cups of hot water from the boy over the counter. It was hilarious that the boy knew what she exactly wanted; yet another cup of hot water.

"Oh my hot-water boy is going home. Better get more hot water before he's gone" said fio at 4am.

LOL!

Man, should have taken some pictures.

And yes, she told me how she played a guy out last Saturday at Double O. Thank God I didn't know her during clubbing. SHE'S HORRIGIBLE I SWEAR. I shall spare the details for the goodness of all MANkind, literally.

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So much for an interesting night.

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The Mac was playing some Chinese hits after a night long of English pop from Perfect Ten. And I subconsciously took up my pencil (not to scribble notes on what population parameters are in Ecology) and doddled a few lines of an ad-hoc poem. Just completed the full poem and so here goes.

I Thought

In the dark twilight of the revolving sphere,
I thought about myself, and I feel a little bit weird.
Series of songs diffuse into the dense cold air here,
I thought about the things that I once held dear.

Many things I had done brought me joy and tears,
I once thought about them, what are left are remorse and fear.
As days pass by, my mind became clear,
I had actually trashed the past, something that I’m very sure.

The world is never static, noises of unhappiness I hear,
among couples with hatred, and couples with love.
Never am I falling into the trap again; please do not get near,
The skies are never grey to start with in my own world here.

As I add this poem on to my collection, I realised that I have 38 poems in my collection throughout these 2.5 years. OMFG.

Good day people.

p.s. Maybe I should start a new blog just for my poems. Suggestions?

Interesting Way of Blogging.

I just thought of this interesting way to blog. From now (0056 hrs) onwards until I sleep, I shall insert short episodes of my thoughts as the twilight zone stretches.

0056 hrs

Just completed 2 pages of the reading required for the 2000-word crtitical writing essay. And I pulled out a strand of hair accidentally. I hope John and Peter are getting their butts down to the reading (at least).

0107 hrs

I like to twirl my short hair while I read my readings.

0131 hrs

I just viewed my Friendster homepage. Page views jumped from 28 to 33 after I edited my profile. LOL

Okay I refreshed that page because I am taking a short break. Thomas (new "didi") and fio are talking to me now. And fio might be typing out references for my essay. Sweet girl.

0135hrs

She just gave me the references! Thank you girl.

0204hrs

Took snapshots of myself. I cannot focus. Still reading. Sigh.

0231hrs

FINALLY STARTING.

0527hrs

702 words as of now. 1298 more to go. I think CCE 301 assignments are easier. After taking a warm shower to invigorate myself, it seems that I still feel sleepy. John has gone to slumberland without starting his work. Dok gongs. I will survive. After the summary, I can finally start to gong jiao wei.

0558hrs

A few more lines before the summary is done. So I have another, 1000 words to go? No it is 998 words. Just checked. Heh.

0610hrs

TIME TO TALK RUBBISH (like, finally).

0637 hrs

Initially, I took my stand on one side of the argument. After looking through references, I realised that I want to take another side. *conflict*

And I feel the mental block enlarging by the minute.

0719hrs

Progress is generally good. Formulated my argument already and one point down. The air coming out of the aircon smells funny when it is more than 26 degree celsius. I don't know why.

1041hrs

Struggling to conclude the God darn essay. I fell asleep with my eyes opened because for a moment, I cannot hear my music playing on my laptop.

1113hrs

ONE last reference and I'm done. *zzzz*

1144hrs

Okay, sent to John for printing already. Thanks John.

OMFG it is 11 hours in total in front of my workstation.

This is madness at its best.

Updates.

It has been a long time since I last blogged. About my life. Actually, it has been simple so far and easily summarised with one word.

DRAINED.

It was a wasted day in the Singapore Science Centre today. It would be much more worth it to sleep the morning away and waking up in the afternoon, fully charged up for assignments (yet again).

Assignments and presentations have leeched off my energy to think coherently at times and behave erratically. I think I have just screwed up this semester.

Come to think about it, I am still in the last May - August holiday mood. Maybe those days were too melancholic for me to relax and have fun, and therefore I am having a hell of my time now struggling with work.

It has been 2 weeks ever since I hanged out with Jimmy and co. I wonder how they are.

I was chatting with this "old" friend of mine in MSN and we talked about life. In her blog, she had her own concept of life.

Life = Simple = Beautiful = Imperfect

Therefore, Life = Imperfect

For me, simplicity in life is beauty.

I never knew someone as young as her would think this way like me. It was insightful to hear how youngsters nowadays perceive life to be. People look for excitement in the things they do. People look for meaning in the things they do. But for me, I realised that in a lot of things I have done, I look for nothing. Going through the motion. Not knowing what I want to achieve for certain actions I did.

Maybe this is what I call a simple life. Living for the present.

Nevertheless, my life is getting better as days go by.

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I just cannot wait for the Ikea at Tampines to open soon. This means that I will be getting new furniture for my room!

But before that, I need to clear up the post-war zone after the examinations before the new furniture can come in. And this time round, I am going to get a queen-sized bed. No more squeeze-squeeze in future! Man, I am just excited at the thought of it.

Erm, excited over having a revamping of my room. Don't ever let your thoughts digress for now.

Good day people.

Theme: Life After War

Woah. Bad attempt at photo editing.