Jaded.

48 hours in two days, 3 hours of sleep altogether.

Totally shacked out.

A presentation later and luckily it is more or less sorted out.

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Sometimes, it's not easy being green.

Being green is just who I am.

And I think it wouldn't be really hard to see whether I'm really green, or I am a chameleon-like frog.

Well, good day people.

Behold!

It has been three and a half weeks into the third-year second semester.

And I felt like there are a lot of fabrications going on in school.

This blog is still stalked.

Biased speculations, baseless assumptions and "story-making" make life so interesting sometimes. Not on my part though.

Well, NIE is a platform for creative minds at work isn't it?

But I abhor such creativity. It should be used in more useful areas like lesson, fieldtrip plannings and classroom management.

Do unto others what you want others to do unto you.

Behold! Karma is near!

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During the holidays, I felt that I needed work to engage my intellect. To stimulate the complacent mind. Now that work has set in, I feel the polarity of my thoughts conjuring up with increasing intensity.

Can I just rest for a day or two without any work in mind?

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I wonder what's happening in Jimbi's life now. Same old thing, he refuses to divulge. Well, as busy as I can be, I'll always be here to lend a listening frog's ear. =)

And I can't wait for the weekend to come. Housewarming cum wedding dinner at Raffles Hotel. The monetary damage is going to be so darn high. There better be good food and complimenting drinks.

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There is going to be a group-conducted fieldwork at the HDB Hub later on. And my group is presenting! But I'm quite stoned now. Can't get down to my script for some spastic self-rehearsing. And yes, stay tuned for the details of my round-island cycling trip two weeks ago.

Laters.

A Glass of Wine, And Some Little Thoughts (with No Promises).

It has been a pretty long day today.

Had a recce at Toa Payoh's HDB hub at about 11am for my Social Studies module, accompanied the angel for a medical appointment at NUH, followed by rollerblade shopping (which turned out to be fruitless), then to Toa Payoh again for dinner at Crystal Jade with the angel, the sister and the mum. Went to town for a late night movie of Blood Diamond, send her back on the night rider and passed by Toa Payoh for the 3rd time.

And I just got home at 4am.

Opened a small bottle of 1998 Cabernet Sauvignon and started to drink abit despite the fact that I feel pretty stoned now.

"Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.

Every time you're near I feel like I’m in heaven, feeling high."

How aptly put.

The wine has perhaps turned bad, with a paltry and dry taste to it; the colour an off-red, a strong aromatic woody yet mildy-spiced fragrance exuded from the warmth of my right palm as I held on to the base of the bubble of the glass.

Always said I would know where to find love, always thought I'd be ready and strong enough. But some times I just felt I could give up.

But...

你给我信仰爱情的勇气.

Maybe, to be continued.

Good night people.

Time.

Darn it. My previously drafted post got deleted as my IE hung just now. Now I have to recollect my thoughts because it was a bloody long one. ARGH.
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I looked at the FHM (mis)placed haphazardly on my pile of past-semestral notes.

Issue: Feb 2006, with Erica Lee as the cover-page model.

How time flies. It has been almost a year already. Although the notes remained unpacked. Although the mouse-potato computer routine dies hard. Although the atmosphere of my room still feels stifling and slight-claustrophobically inhibiting.

Some things never change.

But some things, they do.

Nonethelessly, I've learnt a few new things about myself.

Some people became fearful of me.
Some people say I am cute.
Some people say I am reliable.
Some people say I'm silly.

But I guess, this is just me. Maybe, some parts of me manifested with time, coupling it with the ever-evolving circumstances around me.

Time does change me, for the better and/or the worst. Depends on how you view me, that is.

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As I reminisced into the past (meaning to say, around half a year back onwards), I have positive thoughts about rekindling my previous relationship. Thoughts about how life with her would be if she changes. How fantastic life would be with her if the changes were to take place.

I even thought to myself, that how would I feel one day when I suddenly wake up and moved on? At that point in time, I cannot find a proper, logical explanation or rather, I told myself I can't do it.

But even as motivating thoughts emerged from me, potently overwhelming negative thoughts set in as well. It is not like the candle fire that waxes and wanes.

Doubtfulness and apprehension overrode the positivity of them all as time went by. Now it felt so funny even trying to think about it again.

I guess some matters need no further elaborations. Pretty indicative of where I'm heading towards isn't it?

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Well, this semester has been pretty much relaxing compared with the previous one. No long, tormenting lectures and tutorials that seem like eons, no caffeinated nights mugging for examinations and assignment mad rushes. Well, some of the previously-mentioned do apply to this semester as well. This semester seems stressful in its unique way in the sense that there is practicum.

But all these made much more bearable with intrinsic motivation budding within me from the angel.

Thank you.

Albeit at times, it does feel like femme fatale.

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I know (and confirmed) that this blog is under the surveillance of watchful eyes waiting to prey on the juicy bits of my life. My only request for you guys out there would be, to read and forget. There's nothing much here worthy of critical discussions, hypotheses-making and speculations after assimilating what I've penned down ever so truthfully here.

Thank you so very much.

Good day people.

Aching Thighs, Queasy Stomach.

It was pleasant and invigorating to have exercised two days in a row, one day alone, and today with company.

Tight muscles and aches all over the body seem to liberate many many thoughts from me.

But I guess, thoughts are somehow chained to the wallows of the mind. Liberated but yet not-so-liberated.

Well, running seems to be a much more better way to clear the mind as compared to guzzling down the fizzy, golden-yellow liquid, albeit running makes one pretty stoned and perhaps, blur as a sort of aftermath. I should get used to it, nonethelessly.

Random thoughts for today:

1. It would be nice to cuddle up with a special someone on this (yet again) rainy night.
2. It is nice to have a good, full meal after running.
3. I would want to exercise on a regular basis.
4. I want to be able to sleep before 3am everyday (safe for exceptions).
5. It is time to start work!

The sweet-smelling rain does hold untold stories. Sad, happy, bitter and sour and the what-nots. All blended into one concoction which might leave a bitter or sweet aftertaste. Maybe it all depends on the drinker.

有些事情你现在不必问, 有些人你永远不必等.

Blogs.

How much can I blog in this personal space of mine, where it has been a site for rumour-mongers and anonymous taggers?

As such, a few of my posts (and future posts perhaps) will be hosted on another mutual friend's blog. PM me for the address, and I may give it to you.

Sorry for the snobbishness here, for I have experienced enough to be wary of "outsiders" who invade my blog with a hidden agenda.

But anyway, if you are close enough to me, you don't have to read my blog to know what went on in my life these few weeks.

And I went without food for today. *growls*

Hmm, a last word of thanks to someone who impacted my life, and left beautiful memories in me. Although our agendas are different, I still appreciate all these while. I'd try my best not to think towards your agenda for it brings nothing to me.

Good night people.

Quizzical frog.

Okay people, I guess some of you are having problems with the quiz link.

As such, click here.

And I've found a new blogging space!

Good day people.

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Darn.

Oh man, I suddenly felt so stupid. I cannot help to be stupid because it is just me. My character.

Stupid thoughts I have make me so uncomfortable.

A silly frog I am.

Nothing is for sure, and I am so foolish to feel this way.

ARGH!

"I'll be a fool, but just for you."

Obligatories + Updates.

Merry New Year to all avid readers of this humble little webspace of mine!

Again, this is the obligatory, but never mind that.

It was a tiring day for me, with a lack of sleep the night before plus a few games of badminton and long-distance cycling. All strenuous exercises.

New Year's Eve was a boring night. Chilled at Cosy Bay with Jo and Min, with 'excellent" service and a running nose.

Clubbed a few times as well for the past three weeks, and got free boozing at times. It is interesting to see people getting high and doing silly things as well.

As the holiday comes to an end in a few days' time, many aspects of my life come to an end as well. Things are going to feel different when school reopens, with practicum and all. More club events. Lesser chilling and more mad rushes of assignments by the CNY.

I am really wondering, and I looking forward to school, or am I dreading the impending 8th Jan? Maybe, there is nothing left to look forward to except for a shift in the mindset.

Well, the past three weeks have been enjoyable, memorable and empathetic at times. I see and learn new things from others, I saw different sides of the human mind; different perspectives of life.

I tend to be persuasive in nature, probably I'll attribute it to my personality. But sometimes, I guess I have to put myself into different mindtrips and see things from a broader point of view.

Sometimes, I shouldn't even question myself why things (are going to) feel different. Asking begets more questions in the end. Ignorance is bliss indeed.

Hmm, make the best out of it all.

And thank you for making my holiday such a blessed and magical one.

Good night people.