Updates (If You Like).

It has been a eventful year so far; turmoils, pleasures, happiness, melancholy and all. Emotions experienced were/are beyond description. But I guess, definitely fruitful to a certain extent, up to how one choose to view it all.

I can never thank my friends enough for being there for me when I was sick, tormented, happy, ecstatic and confused. You guys make my day everyday.

That does sound cliche, but those are obligatories anyway. Haha.

Life has pretty much been the same this holiday (as compared to last year's), albeit significantly different in some sense. Some things in life are simply short-lived, especially good times. But nonetheless, I had an extremely blessed holiday this time round.

One Christmas followed by the New Year Day holiday in the following week definitely seems like something that school-goers wish for. A nice and long hiatus full of partying from weekend to weekend.

I felt that I've grown out of the partying scene.

But still, I did mention that it is the company that counts more than anything else.

Sadly, things don't feel the same this year. It is a sublimal thought that sunk in after everything has come to past. During last year's Christmas gathering, I told the mates that it was a bad 2005. Fully agreed. And we proclaimed that 2006 will not let us down again.

Yet, the snowballing effect of incidents never fail to overwhelm that prevalent thought we once had as 2006 encroaches in the borders of 2007.

What have we accomplished so far in 2006? Are we proud of our accomplishments, if any?

What are the bad things that had happened to us? Are we able to get over them as 2007 draws nearer? Or are we going to live in the shadows of our phobia and memories?

I chose to abandon them all, not even allowing them to remain as remnants at the back of my mind.

Because they do me no good. It's finally time to wake up and be practical (if I manage to), I hope.

Sometimes, this little humble space of mine cannot harbour too many thoughts for the fear of being exposed, either intentionally or unintentionally. Thus, my poor mind have to tolerate my little facets of life.

There are people who said this webspace of mine is sad. Melancholic. Depressing. Full of emotions. But that is really who I am when I go into deep thought. I can choose to be happy and talk about the merry I've made all these while.

But c'mon, I don't want to fall that hard again after having a few excruciatingly-painful falls. I rather be realistic than to be a poseur.

Few understood me; maybe none. I'm still waiting faithfully for the day when I receive the gift of love; someone who will tell me that she is willing to understand my complexity within the simplicity I tend to exhibit all the time.

Well, enjoy the magic while it lasts, and time will confirm the rest.

Good night people. I guess, I am happy (for now).

范逸臣 - 除此之外

This is a song dedication to someone who has affected my life in a way or another. A song that speaks the language of my heart.

A song which reflects perfectly.

And this is for you.

Say goodnight, 晚安
谢谢你陪我一整个夜晚
Close your eyes, be quiet
我明白你有自己的不安

很多来不及我不曾看见
我只遇见你的现在
不管你接受或离开
I hope to stay for a while

除此之外, 要你明白
你的笑我真是喜欢看
于是我一次又一次等待
其实都还算愉快

除此之外, 非常遗憾
你的心我还是打不开
And if you need somebody
我确定我会在, 不会走开

So goodbye, 晚安
舍不得看你觉得不自在
It's alright, I'm fine
看起来这故事会写不完

很多差一点你没有发现
你只认识我的现在
不管你留下或走开
I'm gonna stay for a while

除此之外, 我要你明白
你的笑我真是喜欢看
于是我一次又一次等待
其实都还算愉快

除此之外, 非常遗憾
你的心我还是打不开
And if you need somebody
我确定我会在

除此之外, 我还在等待
你的心将为我敞开
But if you need somebody
你知道我会
不会走开

Somewhere Only We Know.

You know, this song never really had a meaning to me, except that the tune was rhythmically soothing.

Until now, I see the true meaning of it all, because it suddenly dawned upon me that after all, there is a meaning to it.

So, why don't we go somewhere only we know? Where we've found those happiness as we know all of it are going to end soon.

This could be the end of everything.

So why don't we go,

somewhere only we know?

I can't sleep; my head seems to get heavier by the days.

Should I say, I get asphyxiated at times.

I think, certain things in life do leave good memories, as opposed to traumatic ones. Really.

Even till today, I'm enjoying the simple pleasures of life.

But sometimes, these simple pleasures don't seem to be simple at times.

Meaningful, and purposeful though.

However, with a price to pay (eventually).

Good night people.

游鸿明 - 爱我的人和我爱的人

This is one nice song which I have dug up from my super old, cob-webbed collection of songs.

Enjoy.

盼不到我爱的人
我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人
片刻柔情它骗不了人
我不是无情的人
却将你伤的最深
我不忍我不能
别再认真, 忘了我的人

爱我的人对我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪

爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

Notice.

I don't really appreciate anonymous taggers, especially those with hostility and/or animosity (for whatever reasons there might be).

This sort of thing disdains me to quite a large extent, I would say. And I don't think it would be nice to publish the I.P address for that matter (for the time being).

I guess I don't have to explain any of my actions, thoughts and decisions made in my life unless I see a real need to do so.

If anyone would love to know anything (or a clearer picture of things) for one reason or another, you can kindly leave your name/email, or you can simply email me (if you can even bother to).

Good night people.

p.s. The tag has been removed, so do not bother scrolling down the taggy and see what really happened.

Hmm..

For those who mistakenly think (thought) that I am currently attached now, let me clarify.

I am currently a single man as of now.

Well, I don't know where the "misunderstanding" came from, but I hope it is cleared now.

Good night people.

蔡依林 - 假装

呼吸着一种孤独的味道
心跳在你沉默以后慢慢的被淡忘掉
我笑了笑反正你看不到
我要的幸福遗落在你怀抱

当爱失了焦
那些最初的美好
早被你搁在一角
街上拥挤人潮走着看着都是摧眠符号

记忆停不了
穿过读你的心跳
穿过想你的味道
我只想不被打扰

假装多好我只要只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
一直会让我依靠
继续等待还心甘情愿的不想逃

当爱失了焦
那些最初的美好
早被你搁在一角
街上拥挤人潮走着看着都是摧眠符号

记忆停不了
穿过读你的心跳
穿过想你的味道
我只想不被打扰

假装多好我只要只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
一直会让我依靠
继续等待心甘情愿不想逃

假装多好依然是依然是暧昧的tone调
一个人无理取闹
两人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己设下的圈套

像是驼鸟相信时间是唯一解药
视而不见傻到了无可救药
其实早明了你的爱已随风飘
想要找再也找不到

假装多好我只要只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
还心甘情愿的不想逃

假装多好依然是依然是暧昧的tone调
一个人无理取闹
两人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己设下的圈套

假装自己已解开冰冷的手铐

A Bed of Roses.

"Well, it has always been a bed of roses till now hasn't it?"

Sadly, roses have thorns.

A Nice Weekend.

Hi people, a nice weekend so far, with more great things to come along.

But this post comes with, actually, a hidden agenda.

Maybe you can just do a little favour by clicking here, go to MS 111, and maybe, vote for a friend of mine.

If that face doesn't really suit your personal preference of lust, you can, well, vote for another one but remember, I'm really just asking for a simple favour.

SMS to 81752709 the Miss Momo Santarina's contestant number (e.g. MS 111) and followed by your name, IC Number and your mobile number.

Good night people.

Crescent Sonata.

The crescent casts a dubious reflection of beauty and apprehension over the reservoir waters.

I live by the day. Maybe I should continue this way.

Sweetness At Its Very Best.

For those who know, I'm blessed, truly.

Good day people. (",)

Yesterday, All The Troubles Seem So Far Away.

It was a blast yesterday. Rollerblading with Amanda at East Coast Park and clubbing at night.

But she's cool. A fellow bio bunchie knows how to blade as well, although she's a noob. Abit buey zai but can make it. =)

Then she forgot her concession card was still with the rental shop AFTER we board the bus. As a result, we walked all the way back. Now she owes me 2 bowls of 3-eggs porridge.

That girl demands hot shower, so I gracefully asked her over to my place for a shower before she goes off again. She picked my dressing for that night (hot and stuffy though) and left lots of hair in my room after blowing her hair dry. It has been a long time since clusters of long hair have been spotted once again.

Zouk-ing was a whack, but until 12am only, and then regained momentum at 2am.

What happened in between that short short period of time was traumatising. But I guess, to each his/her own. I don't really know it is lust or love that things happened between my friends but I think there's a time and place for everything, without getting caught.

The music was alright. Not that fantastic, but overall, the bunch of mates were good. Cute dancing, the fanciful mirages of hand movements likened to "Para Para." and the babes.

A not-too-wasted night, if you ask me. Can DEFINITELY be improved though.

It Is The Day When I Needed Something.

I am one who needs constant attention. Assurance.

Because they contribute to my self-esteem, which I guess I lack of quite substantially recently.

It is a new day tomorrow of blading and clubbing. Yay!

And I thank all my friends who have been incessantly nagging at me through MSN and text messaging (Ser Ling, Amanda, Choong, Olivia, fio and a few others) to drink more water. I can never thank you guys enough for the concern. But sometimes, beer helps also lah.

Serious.

You guys rock my c*ck (quoted) through this period of sickness after the examinations.

And I miss Bro Jim, Ivan and Eric!

The skies will always be grey. The sun is just pale in comparison.

Everyday, something interesting will happen. But sometimes I just don't see the need to pen it down.

Days of clubbing, sickness, mugging and slacking. Some segments of it are definitely worth remembering and reminiscing about. Some of them left engraved impressions in my heart.

At last, something worth remembering!

But albeit there're moments as mentioned, we don't forget disappointments, anger, some negative cognitions and the whats-not.

Sometimes, I miss the mugging days. There is a focus, at the very least.

Not like the emptiness and voidness that crept behind my back after the examinations. An empty mind is the devil's playground.

But, being sick makes me feel like a bum.

The skies have been grey and sunny intermittently.

I guess, that applies to all humanity as well.

Sleepless.

I can't sleep, so I resorted to medication.

I won't die, would I?