Interesting.

I saw something interesting on Bro Eric's MSN. Combining that interesting saying with one of which I knew, it goes like this:

"What don't kill you makes you stronger but haunts you forever."

Well, come to think of it, it's true. How many of us can escape the haunting memories of the past? Memories that carry the emotional baggage, guilt, remorse, sorrow and what-nots.

One may say, "I am strong and I had moved on." But can they confidently say that memories are dead? No, memories are never dead, be it fond or painful ones.

I feel like a poser at times. At times when I felt so vulnerable yet I acted strong. At times when I feel so down under but I looked optimistic. Surrounding people may say you are stupid but who is to judge? There is only one Entity who can judge in this universe. Every finger you point at people, three fingers are pointing back at you.

But notwithstanding the previous paragraph, I am feeling better most of the times. I'm able to cope with things right now. And I thank all of you for the moral support and encouragement.

It puts me down to see that we quarrel over almost every little thing as friends. But things perked me up at times when we chatted peacefully though she is the one who was turned off by those quarrels.

Not forgetting that she initiated the chat.

Life is interesting eh? I've learnt not to presume, assume and be too kind. Sometimes you are kind because of human nature; you just want some little reciprocation no mater how little it is. Sometimes you are kind because of a charitable heart. Sometimes you are kind because you feel sorry about things. I don't know which category I belong to but presumably the very first one.

The weather these few days had been gloomy and it had added to my mood. Not able to go outdoors and do the things I want make me feel so dead and couch-potato like. No I don't stay in front of the black box and eat chips like what you see in trashy American advertisements but I stay in front of my computer and do almost every single sh*t thing there except for Nature's calls.

Looking into the future, I foresee a very busy me. School orientation is drawing near as well as school experience. The holiday is coming to an end soon before I knew it. I can't wait for school to start actually. Meeting new people, having some stuff to study and catching up with mates seemed exciting (in a way).

And I apologise for not being able to meet up with my "situational" brothers like Jimbi these past two weeks. Busy with school stuff and you people are working. Hard to coordinate. And I want to cut down on my clubbing expenses. Come to think of it, I've only clubbed once in these past two weeks. Quite a feat isn't it?

Erm, it's early. Time to nap. =)