My Thoughts.

I couldn't help but to feel down and under whenever I see his face. Whenever I picture him as my bubbly yet serious colleague.

I can only say a silent prayer for him in my heart and pray that he will be happy with Him.

I really feel very depressed over the loss of such a nice friend.

Remorse is what I feel in my heart now. For not visiting him when he was first admitted into hospital. For not visiting him when I was free. For not doing what I should do as a friend.

I had taken a great friend for granted.

My heart is feeling so mixed up now. It feels so heavy, so bitter, so tight. Feel like crying because this is such a terrible feeling; to lose someone whom you never put in the effort to appreciate as a great buddy.

Somehow, I still have not accepted his demise from this world.

I still remember there was once I met him in Tampines when I was shopping for my Genting trip last year. I can't imagine that it would be the last time I see him smiling. The fact that he had left us slapped me harder in the face than my emotional problems. A lot more harder.

What Eric say is correct. Had you told the ones who you love, that you love them today?

Yes I love all my friends and brothers who had stood by me when I was down and under. I am thankful to God for your presence in my life. I pray for you people every night before I sleep.

I love those people who had crossed my path and made me understand certain important aspects of life. I am glad our paths had crossed.

I love my mum for being so ever-patient with me, my dad for teaching me life lessons and my brother for accompanying my parents when I was busy at times.

Sometimes, it is not about me feeling pessimistic about life but I feel that if words are needed to be spoken, feelings are needed to be expressed and actions are needed to be taken, we should do so. For we do not know what can happen the next minute.

In saying so, I want to tell her that she is still in my heart, every minute and second. Yes I still love you. But I expect no returns because love is unconditional. All I will do is to wish you well in your future.

The thought of losing your loved ones the very next moment makes my heart shudder with fear and apprehension. That thought made me feel that life is so small. So delicate.

I liken life to the smoke in the air,
now you see it, later it’s not there.
I write a poem just for you my friend,
as a last thing I can do, to show that I cared.

You had put up a good fight; we are proud of you.
You had always looked bubbly; you never looked blue.
You had done your best, in the end you yield.
God had ended your sufferings with His powerful seal.

You had gone home to be with the Lord our God,
I say a silent prayer for you, I will forget you not.
I will always appreciate; you once came into my life,
I bid you farewell now, you will always be in my thoughts.

You will always live in our hearts.

Amen.