I Know What I Want.

It had been a fruitful day, except for my revision. Learnt abit of diving, erm i meant driving. And somehow after that lesson, my thoughts drifted off unknowingly. Into the future and telling myself what i want.

I want to save up money for my future. For my wedding. I must have the financial security.

I had been living in self-delusion from day to day, obscured by many, many things. It's time to set goals for myself to achieve.

Yes i had awakened from the illusion and i hope to be a new person from now on. A new man i may be, but some things will never ever change.

I don't know why but i felt nauseous and a headache throbbing my little skull tonight. Perhaps i had stared at my monitor for too long. Perhaps i can't get the right answers for my revision. Perhaps thoughts had been running amok in my mind. Perhaps, perhaps and more perhaps.

I seriously don't know how to end off this post tonight.

"Suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope doesn't disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." - Romans 5:5, 4, 5

I pray for you.