My Thoughts.

She told me she was afraid that I'll be tempted when i entered university. She told others to be sincere to her heart.

And now she told me she is not ready to commit. I cannot understand that after a close-to-3-year relationship the girl comes telling you she cannot commit.

Does one really need to learn the hard way? I learnt the hard way and i kept true to the one i love. Advices given fell on deaf ears. 1. She still like me. 2. But she is just not ready to commit. Does these two things link at all? Hardly if you ask me. It seems that i started off well telling myself that it's all over. But as days go by my heart weighs heavier with emotions. And i cant sleep when she is out late at night. Because i am worried. Not that i don't trust her friends but it's just some kind of concern you'd show to a person you really love. A field trip tomorrow at 8 and i can't sleep. Just what am i thinking about?

At the same time, i really hope she won't do things to spite me. I rather i suffer than her doing things against her will and lose out in the end.

How ironic can it be when we were still happily together days ago and one small event triggered everything off. I hope to be in self-denial by going after her again. But i can't achieve that withn my present state of thinking i guess.

I really hope she give some thoughts to the lyrics of the song i posted earlier on.