It is the time of the month again.

I can finally picture myself sitting down in front of my computer with blogspot.com loaded in front of me today. 2 weeks of pure laziness and bliss had totally cut me off from blogging. Leeme look at my pictures to see what exactly happened to me for this past two weeks...

Okie, went for steamboat with her at Joaquim Lounge in Suntec. You know the nice, aromatic smell you catch more than a whiff at when you walk past Polo Ralph everytime? Yea dude, that's it. Will post some pictures up on this el-cheapo steamboat which costs both of us only 34 bucks (i think). After that steamboat, went for a walk along Esplanade at the river side. It was really sad to go back there with my loved one just to feel the nostalgia of the breakup. Life is really, really so uncomprehensible and elusive. Yah and after that we went into the Esplanade, walked around and took some pictures. Some pictures that she will kill me for posting them. However, prints can be ordered at S$0.50 per piece. Msn me for more details.

Oh and i finally cased my sword after 2 years of laying still in my wadrobe. The damage was S$175. Felt the numbness in my heart after pressing my PIN unwillingly. But well, heck.

What happened was all basically hunting for CNY clothes. I got no idea as to how should i dress for it. But well, heck it. Shall be out and hunt for the clothes tomorrow again.

We also went to Chinablack on the eve of Haji. Haha..wasted 30 bucks on the tickets and didn't enjoy it. Beer was expensive after 12.

Lessons learnt: 1. Don't go clubbing with your girlfriend alone.

2. Don't attend bashes with your girlfriend alone.

Went for supper at Swenson's. The damage was quite high though. With the cab fare and stuff it amounted to $100 spent in the night.

When is the pay for February coming in?

I think the highlight for these two weeks is another break up incident that happened to one of my close buddies. Things felt far too similar and shocking. Beyond recognition. Heaven really like to make sports of people. I literally sank into his emotions as well and thoughts ran through my mind. Yes i went through the shit before but how can i be sure that shit doesn't happen to me again? Apprehension hung in the air as we talked about that past relationship. Alcohol is a source of reality-evasion. But at the end of the day, you know that things remain.

Sometimes, somehow, i still give much thought to my relationship even till today, when things are alright already. I don't know when that rainy day will come. Today? Tomorrow? I will never know.

Sometimes i agitate her, i piss her off but i always take it for granted that things will be restored to normality again. Nowadays i think i am beginnning to think this way again. This is bad. But i always don't understand why sometimes, she can be so hot tempered towards me. Yes i must agree that i am one guy who only realises his contradictions after he created shit. I mean sometimes if you love someone and you know that it is his characteristic to do so, isn't things better off if we can both accommodate and compromise without blowing things up?

That buddy of mine told me, "You must be able to give and take in a relationship. To be together is to accept each others' differences; to accommodate and compromise so that this relationship can last." I think i had seen through things and can better compromise. But i also realised one thing in a relationship. What you give is not what you take. What you reap is not what you sow. This harsh fact is painfully, very painfully, etched in one small corner of my heart. Moreover, if things are not meant to be, no point harping over it. There is so much, so much about life to be explored.

People around me should know, when it comes to friends and the other half, sometimes i can be more inclined to the former than the latter because i know that friends are always there for me when i needed them. When they are in their lowest state, i think it's time to play my part. Yes i give my other half 101%, but i give my friends 102% if there is a need to. But sadly, this personality of mine is not that appealing to her.

I think i shall try and find a song of the day and post it up.

Adios people. And i love ya all out there.