Clean & Clear

Hmm..Some things had been sorted out today. It kind of lifted a load off me but at the same time, another load banged onto me. Something harder to accept. Something more heart-wrenching. Something more unexpected. But why bother?

It is hard not to be bothered.

The reason was given over a dinner out there.

I saw obvious guilt on the face so fair.

I blame myself for being so tactless,

leading to actions that were so rash.

I wished I didn't say those things that night. Maybe things might had taken a better turn this time round then.

My heart felt pierced, my breath heavy.

Knowing the fact made me so giddy.

Forgetting it all is so easy;

I just need to hide in hypocrisy.

But I try not to be a hypocrite in this aspect. I am outspoken and I speak my mind.

But what good does it do to speak your mind when things are already too late. Really too late. Probably beyond salvage?

Probably I was a mistake to be born in this world as an emotional and sentimental person.

I think I should pursue a new life because I am not very positive about things. Really. Being positive pulls one down when things don't turn out the way you want it to be.

Nothing more to ask for, nothing much to say.

You had made the decision, I should be out of the way.

I pray for you, to be happy and all,

Time to pack up and go, the world's not my place.

I wish you well.