It's Been Long

It has been a long time since I blog.

In the past, I blog almost everyday. Now, I blog every month.

Life has taken a toll on me (again) recently. Surprisingly, it was not the teaching practice that brought me down and under.

Just something which I can feel within me, but I cannot explain why.

Just like not everything in life can be explained, this applies to me now.

Sometimes, some things need not be explained. It just (doesn't) come and not matter how long it takes, the results remain the same.

Nowadays, I just wait for the sun to appear, and it will make me happy enough for the day.

Sometimes, I do things and I ask myself whether I am happy doing them. Initially, I was really, truthfully happy. As time goes by and I ask myself the same thing again, the answer became ambiguous, albeit almost to the point of certainty that it was just something I do just to occupy time. The meaning is clouded. I do not seem to see the purpose clearly anymore.

And everyday, I remain the same; I wait for the sun to come out and play with me.

我知道你我都没有错, 只是忘了怎么退后.