Interesting.

I cannot imagine that I just bought a book from Mount Zion today. Interesting book talking about the five languages of love.

So far, the content has been pretty engaging and thought - provoking. It gave me a new perspective to love.

And I did a lot of self - assessment these past few weeks. It seems that I am pretty negative about life. Not that I have portrayed myself that way since I looked almost chirpy on he outside but deep inside I am harbouring serious thoughts.

I realised that I know what I wanted in this life, but somehow, people don't see this side of me. I would say it is pretty hard to guess my thoughts from time to time because I appear nonchalent even to serious matters.

How do other people look at me? How do they assess my character and personality? This I would pretty much want to know. How people really think of me as a friend, as a leader and as a boyfriend.

Something that is boogling my mind for the past few weeks must be club work. No understudy for me and I foresee a tough time ahead. Am I such a bad leader that I am unable to motivate potential leaders enough to undertake this future club presidency? Sometimes I really question my leadership abilities. I am not a ready-made leader from birth and I have my flaws. Did I lack the training, or it is just me?

Darn, I am so in an organisational mess at home.

The only easy day was yesterday.