My blog is a blog is my blog...: I Think, Therefore I Am.

I think I had been far too hostile in my MSN nick and my Friendster profile. I should be more friendly.

I think I had been far too slack in my revision.

I think my life will be wonderful after my examinations. Except for anticipated cash flow problems.

A list of things-to-do after the papers:

Cycling to East Coast Park, write poems there and enjoy the sea breeze.
Attend courses to enrich myself.
Go gym, tan and swim regularly.
Chilling out with friends who drink and haven't drank with them yet.
Watching VCDs and lots of movies.
Look for a part-time job.
Focus on my planning for orientation and Sharity Camps.
Go shopping and drink coffee in town.
Make gifts.
Keep all my notes and reorganise my disorderly room.
Do some gardening.
Train for my IPPT.
Concentrate on driving lessons.
Focus on life issues and going after the one.

I think I sounded scary on the last point but anyway, I was just being frank.

Last but not least, get out of my little black box that I've been hiding in for the past 4 months.

How can one change overnight, or even over time for that matter, when so much so much had happened over this short duration of time?

It has been a struggle to juggle both revision and my mind recently. The conscientious mind knows what it is doing. The emotional mind is suppressing what has been running through my thoughts.

I realised the change in me for this year. In a very nasty and disgusting way I put it, she had changed me tremendously both of the better and for the worst. Perhaps I am hating her for this. But I am not bothered by anything else except for the fact that I had changed so much. So much so that I couldn't even recognise myself when I think back of the things that I had done.

Are my thoughts inducible or repressible?

It was a sucky paper this morning. What should come out NEVER did. And what shouldn't had come out DID. I deserve to lose that 36 marks.

I am running low on battery power. My shelf life is expiring. I need to recharge.

Oh where is my pillar of support and strength?

But something good happened today though.

That smile had made my day.