Oh I Have A Fever.

This fever of mine reminded me back to the time last semester, when i had a high fever at her place. Remembered her tender care for me by wiping cold towel over my upper torso, by padding my forehead with cold towel, and asking me to sleep over at her place.

Those were the days.

As i type this post, i felt so empty. The person who was once my pillar of strength and support is now gone. No one to give me tender loving anymore. No one for me to hug and hold on to when i am down.

I still cannot fathom the reason that we broke up. Because she cannot forgive my past? Probably. And i feel that we are drifting. Even as friends I am being doubted. Why? And I really such a venomous person in your eyes whom you had knew for more than 3 years? The pain is piercing you know? I am already so broken because of the relationship, and yet this is how you think of me when ugly things happened? Had i not proven myself enough to be a person who had changed for the better?

I really feel so terrible inside now. Because now i know how you guys think of me when i am desperate. Even after trying so hard to change. And if you don't know, i turn to God when i needed comfort and i turn to my friends when i needed company. Never ever will i resort to down right despicable words in blogs. If i have to sound off my view, i will state who am I.

I am an officer in the armed forces. I have my own integrity.

And people close to me should know. Know that i had changed for the better. But sadly i was maligned.

"Blessed are those pure in heart, for they will see God. "

I just want to be a simple person now.