Vulnerable Me.

Do you people hope for someone dear to fall back on when you feel vulnerable and weak? Will you yearn for someone badly when you felt tired and needed encouragement?

I do.

And I felt so vulnerable recently, much to my surprise.

When I'm out with my friends, I felt so normal. But with thoughts running in my mind without rest. Don't ask me what thoughts are those. Because....

........sometimes things are just meant to stay the way it is now, better not to pursue. The higher you place your hopes, the more painful is your fall. I rather know where is my limit than to risk falling.

Perhaps my mind is playing tricks on me. Because physical fatigue is setting in. Time is running out. And my body can't take it much longer.

I'm just happy with the way things are now. And I hope time will stop somehow, especially at the times when I felt the happiest.

Sometimes you just know that it is not rebound love, but you dare not advance because of the fear of misunderstanding. Sometimes people might just take it that you just need someone foir the sake of having someone and that's about it.

But would anyone ever understand how I feel?

And it is hard to ignore those feelings boiling inside me all the time.

But I just have to bare with it with all reluctance.