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This year seemed to be a bad year for a lot of us. One of my friends got leukaemia. One of my friend broke up with his girlfriend. Another friend of mine is facing a relationship crisis. I have my own financial crisis. I believe my identity crisis is upcoming.
I realised the power of relationships. How powerful it can be in hurting one man whom i believe was (I didn't use "is" because i think he is not himself anymore) stronger than me in all aspects. he became desolate and rotten. It hurts actually to see that happening to him because i took him as my role model. Once. And i hope he can pick himself up again and prove to his brothers that he can stand tall again. But ultimately, i really pray for him that he can prove it to himself. That he can get over this whole episode. Because that is the most important thing of all.
The one facing the crisis. He seemed strong to me. Deep inside i wouldn't know. I realised that no matter how strong a man is, there are bound to be certain aspects that will cause his downfall and certain sides of him which he will not show other than he himself. Some part of him will never be part of him anymore. Although people around him don't see his rotting side, i believe he is feeling so weak and vulnerable inside. Putting on a brave front is good, but it is even better to be able to get over it genuinely than anything else.
Then here comes another girl in my mind. A friend from NIE. Got a past 3-year odd relationship and now she's facing the trauma of everything. As much as she wanted to, she couldn't pick up the courage to patch with the guy. Again i can see that she's putting on a happy front everyday in school. But God knows what she is thinking inside her heart.
Sometimes i felt so blessed to have her. I felt that she was a God-sent angel into my life. To be with me forever until i lie 6 feet beneath. Sometimes i felt so pressuried. Because sometimes, i worry that i can't give her the life that she wants. I don't really know what was expected of me so that i can maintain the relationship. Sometimes i feel inferior to her friends who are financially more stable than me. From time to time, there is always this constant fear of losing her again. We all know what we sow is not what we reap. Especially true in relationships. I am afraid to leave everything to destiny and fate because that is the time when i will take things for granted.
How much is too much? And how little is too little? A fine line being drawn across these two complex ideas really makes one shudder with fear and apprehension for the future. You see, that is the main problem.
Is assurance inportant in a relationship? What form of assurance will make one most assured? Verbally like saying "i love you?? Practically by showering gifts on her? Physically by going out with her everyday? But i think that the best form of assurance is through mutual understanding. But again,, women are from Venus, men are from Mars. How much understanding can we derive from the opposite sex when things go wrong because we assume too much or things go wrong because she thought it should be common sense on your part?
Wah...headache.
I wish those friends of mine a good year ahead of them. Guys, dump those thoughts and live your life. No one owes you a living. You owe your life to yourselves. If you are not going to cherish it, no one will do it for you.
It would be meaningless for people to cherish your lives instead of cherishing it yourselves.
Good day!
This year seemed to be a bad year for a lot of us. One of my friends got leukaemia. One of my friend broke up with his girlfriend. Another friend of mine is facing a relationship crisis. I have my own financial crisis. I believe my identity crisis is upcoming.
I realised the power of relationships. How powerful it can be in hurting one man whom i believe was (I didn't use "is" because i think he is not himself anymore) stronger than me in all aspects. he became desolate and rotten. It hurts actually to see that happening to him because i took him as my role model. Once. And i hope he can pick himself up again and prove to his brothers that he can stand tall again. But ultimately, i really pray for him that he can prove it to himself. That he can get over this whole episode. Because that is the most important thing of all.
The one facing the crisis. He seemed strong to me. Deep inside i wouldn't know. I realised that no matter how strong a man is, there are bound to be certain aspects that will cause his downfall and certain sides of him which he will not show other than he himself. Some part of him will never be part of him anymore. Although people around him don't see his rotting side, i believe he is feeling so weak and vulnerable inside. Putting on a brave front is good, but it is even better to be able to get over it genuinely than anything else.
Then here comes another girl in my mind. A friend from NIE. Got a past 3-year odd relationship and now she's facing the trauma of everything. As much as she wanted to, she couldn't pick up the courage to patch with the guy. Again i can see that she's putting on a happy front everyday in school. But God knows what she is thinking inside her heart.
Sometimes i felt so blessed to have her. I felt that she was a God-sent angel into my life. To be with me forever until i lie 6 feet beneath. Sometimes i felt so pressuried. Because sometimes, i worry that i can't give her the life that she wants. I don't really know what was expected of me so that i can maintain the relationship. Sometimes i feel inferior to her friends who are financially more stable than me. From time to time, there is always this constant fear of losing her again. We all know what we sow is not what we reap. Especially true in relationships. I am afraid to leave everything to destiny and fate because that is the time when i will take things for granted.
How much is too much? And how little is too little? A fine line being drawn across these two complex ideas really makes one shudder with fear and apprehension for the future. You see, that is the main problem.
Is assurance inportant in a relationship? What form of assurance will make one most assured? Verbally like saying "i love you?? Practically by showering gifts on her? Physically by going out with her everyday? But i think that the best form of assurance is through mutual understanding. But again,, women are from Venus, men are from Mars. How much understanding can we derive from the opposite sex when things go wrong because we assume too much or things go wrong because she thought it should be common sense on your part?
Wah...headache.
I wish those friends of mine a good year ahead of them. Guys, dump those thoughts and live your life. No one owes you a living. You owe your life to yourselves. If you are not going to cherish it, no one will do it for you.
It would be meaningless for people to cherish your lives instead of cherishing it yourselves.
Good day!
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